Nothing unravels my insecurity as a résumé–writing a résumé. It is probably one of the reasons I dread having a formal job. The idea of selling one's self to another has never really appealed with me. I am who I am, and that has always been enough. I have never truly sought validation from people, well, except in cases where my life depended on it.
Why are you looking for a good one when you already have two?
Yes I write on hive (occasionally); yes I run a rideshare business (occasionally), but in all honesty, nothing seems enough these days. Recently, I was tempted to apply for an insurance job but thankfully these companies are ageist and in their books I am old (thankfully). No one is really going to employ a 27 year old for an entry level job (thankfully). This has forced me to create opportunities for myself.
However, I will need a job sooner or later. In fact I am in the process of finding one, hence the need to create a resume. I have spent the last two week trying to come up with something decent and I am still very much on this task.
Why do I hate writing resumes so much? Besides the fact that I consider it to be very stressful, I also have to deal with the pressure of standing out, which in turn means penning something grand. Considering you are competing for a position with thousands of people, you need to stand out in some way, and therein lies the problem: I do not feel special in any way.
I do not work around with a god complex or a plethora of achievements. I am just a very simple guy who still doesn't fancy the complexities of the corporate world. I love to write about my life and experiences; I love to drive people around and have small talks. I am not chasing anything that's larger than life. I do not want to conquer the world (because I care little about it). My world is more important than the world– if that makes sense.
Unfortunately I can not always play in my bubble. I am not one to shy away from challenges so I take on whatever comes my way. Knowing that I have overcome every challenge that came my way gives me the courage to try new things.
I do hope I find a job soon. It might not be what I want but it is a means to a greater end, which is more important to me. This is what adulthood is all about, making healthy compromises. The world will not move in the direction you want every single time, and you have to deal with it.