I have been having issues with my mental health lately for so many reasons, I wrote a similar topic about this issue, "Different Views of life" yesterday. As good as it sounds, I feel relieved after writing about that topic
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Image by Dan from Unsplash.For the past months have been struggling with work, nursing and taking care of the house, most of the time i skip going to the office and just work from home with my PC. Due to the Covid 19 pandemic, most workers at the company still work from home. I don't think the office will call this off anytime soon, I mean as long as work is actually done, it's a win-win sort of thing doesn't really matter where or how.
Being a working class mother is not an easy task, i had to do most of my jobs standing up operating the PC and attended meetings on zoom while backing my baby. My back still hurts like hell, and when am bouyant enough am going to the spa.
I do not think about my mental health more than my physical health and well-being. Until recently when I realized my mental health is causing illness to my physical health and well-being.
For some reasons i think alot, i worry about things that dont need to be worried about, I act after i've given the idea like a hundred thoughts. I still feel heartbroken over the fact that my company haven't paid my stipend for two months now due to the shortage of resources.
In Fact this right here (Haven't paid stipend for 2 months due to shortage of resources) is the one taking a thon on my mental health. If need be the company might take any Option just not to go bankrupt,
Option A: Lay some workers off
Option B: Reduce stipends
Option C: Struggle hard not to go bankrupt
Actually, Option A gets me worried. I don't want to be among the workers to be laid off from work, if ever the company decided to take that option.
OH! There is also one last Option
Option D: None of the above.
Am just hoping the company picks option D. Who says miracles don't happen?. But funny enough am not thinking about option D, am more or less concerned about option A.
On second thought, maybe I'm overthinking things, who knows the company might not even be planning any options. But to be on a safer side, one has to prepare the mind.
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Image by Finn from Unsplash.Have been trying to manage my life The best way i can, Without food or money i barely eat what i want or cook what i like, its just all about struggling to stay alive first.
How I survived I do not know. I just find myself pushing myself over and over again, everyday, day in day out. Currently things ain't working out, everything seems stagnant and sometimes it affects my thinking and I doubt if I can get out of this hell hole.
Hey! am not saying you should feel sorry for me, thats life its not always rossy, sometimes we just have to get a taste of the bitter side too
A simple thought kept me going, striving on to push forward and that is "Life is a roller coaster, it has Ups and downs, as much as good days never last, bad days never last either. Today I am at my downs, tomorrow I'll be at my ups. All I just need to do is keep being prayerful and having Faith".
Thank you for your time :)
