My Feeling Is My Personal Business

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When people act as if they know about our lives. _{If you can't comfort other people's sadness, why do you act with bad words as if life should always be fine?}

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I often imagine what people might think about their day. Or, about how they feel or about what they have to do for the next few days to survive. I'm really curious about those things. But I never interfered in their life's affairs for a second. I only invited my own mind to have a dialogue about it all.

Well, I'm writing like this while looking at the rice fields from the corner of a cafe this afternoon. The view doesn't look very good because the rice has just been harvested but at least here I feel calm. This place is indeed quite quiet when you have a view like this with rice that has been harvested because this place is usually crowded with visitors when the rice is green.

You could say I'm taking advantage of the current situation. At least it's not so bad, right, to contemplate in a place like this? I don't even care if it's a public place as long as I do things that are considered normal it's fine, right?

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So let's go back to the original topic. About feelings about what people feel..., or about how someone is curious about someone else's life and tries to interfere in that person's life.

Honestly, you could say this is related to my personal problems. I feel like someone else is interfering in my life. I don't want to talk to that person either. Instead, I'm just sharing how I feel here with you guys at HIVE.

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It's Okay To Not Be Okay

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It's natural for us to feel sad at certain moments but not everyone understands that sadness. When someone is sad maybe other people don't understand why that person is sad and even the most terrible thing is that people say "why are you sad too much" or they say "you are too much you cry".

Those words were actually quite evil. If they couldn't calm someone down or take away someone's sadness, at least they shouldn't say such mean things. It's enough to be a listener or let the sad people in their own space, don't try to get close in their private area. Is it really that hard?

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It can be said that the way people think in certain areas or certain groups greatly influences how they act. For example, in the areas where I live, people are used to meddling in other people's business because usually, this is due to their low level of work. Usually, they don't do anything after they take care of the housework, then they have a lot of free time so they have plenty of opportunities to talk about other people, to take care of other people's things that they shouldn't interfere with at all.

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My Own Business

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A little about my life this time, I just lost someone I love the most in this world. She left me for good and I could only return to her at her grave. I can't hug her anymore. I can't hold her warm hand anymore. I can't cook for her anymore. I can't buy clothes that we like the color of together. I'm very sad about that. In fact, I don't know how to write about that sadness.

: SHE

At first, I thought I was fine. Day by day I felt very lonely when I was at home alone, no one else came to visit me from there. I realized that I was not very well. I find it very easy to shed tears even though I don't feel sad and when I'm sad, I feel I just want to leave wanting to leave this world. That's what my thoughts say my mind is in dialogue with myself. But don't worry I'm not that stupid as to do reflex things: to be clear, I don't want to hurt myself just to get out of this world.

I'm always aware that in any situation I'm sad or sad whatever my situation at that time, I'm very aware that this life is filled with beauty even though sometimes there are some sad and very sad surprises but Life is very worth to be enjoyed for the future. So giving up is not the best solution for all our problems, we just need to calm down, we just need to withdraw from our old habits to start a new life to move on.

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The point that I highlight here is my feeling is that my personal business, and other people have no right to interfere with what I feel I want to be sad it's my right I want to be happy it's also my responsibility I have the right to what I feel other people don't understand at all what I feel.

They act as if they know very well the details of my life. They failed to cheer me up. And, instead they made me fall and fall even deeper.

But once again I reiterate, even though I feel very deep, I know where my limit is I must stand. I have to get up, I have to start a new life, because I know I'm very valuable and I don't want to give up at all**.

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As human beings, we have our own way of solving our problems. We are unique, our way of thinking is unique. So the way we look for solutions is of course different. Don't think that I am the same as you. Never assume you are the same as me or themselves.

Let each of us do our own thing, as long as no one asks to be involved in his affairs. Tell? Why is it so hard for you not to interfere or not enter into someone's personal space?

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I Just Need Space and Time

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I just need some time to myself. I just need time to get away from things that are very unimportant, including from people who are very worthless. And, I deserve better words than that, because life is indeed better than today, I'm sure of it.

I just lost someone and leave me with my sorrows. What the hell (with people who think I'm overreacting and grieve too long). I want to enjoy my time more alone to plan my future days my days without someone who has left me I just need time for that I'm not desperate and I don't involve people at all to help me with my feelings I realize It's true what I feel I'm okay if I don't feel okay so one thing I want to say is don't pretend to feel like a hero When they actually really destroy my feelings by saying that.

I really appreciate the intentions of those who don't want to see me sad for too long. But, oh man it's not even a month and let me be with my world. I have my own way of dealing with my problems. So far I've been fine and I'm sure I'll be fine in the future.

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So, I really thank you guys this time for reading my blog, reading my heart out and I hope that even if you are not okay when you read this blog, you will be fine at the right time. It doesn't matter if you don't feel well. But I hope, at least you feel valuable and you never feel worthless in this world because you each have your own point of view that you should respect.

Stay grateful and blessed!

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Thank you for reading my blog and reblog if you want my blog this time worthy of reading by others.

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Best Regards,
Anggrek Lestari

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